I’m tired all the time. I feel it in my shoulders. I feel it in my bones. It doesn’t matter if I get five hours of sleep or ten–I’m perpetually worn out. Clearly, something’s wrong with me, but what?
Could I have sleep apnea? Could this be my last chance to avoid COPD? Smoking a pack a day for the better part of 20 years certainly make both a possibility. Here’s hoping upcoming medical consults and a sleep study will rule them out.
In the meantime, I wonder how much of this is psychosomatics. How much of my neverending exhaustion is actual medical condition versus the result of my seemingly never-ending internal monologue? How much of my always being tired stems from how often I tell myself I’m always tired? Perception is reality, right? If I’m always telling myself I’m tired, I’m always going to feel tired.
So what happens if I start telling myself, “I feel great”? I’m gonna try it on and see.