Gearbox Magazine was instrumental in getting me to parallel. It was a body of work reflecting vision, initiative, execution, and personal development. And three months after starting at LeadMD, I shut it down.
I feel like I’m starting over; like everything I’ve done in the last decade prepared me to walk through the right door when it finally opened. Now that I’m through that door, my interests have changed. I’m still a gearhead. I’m still interested in publishing. But I’m writing these daily updates with no real sense of where we’ll end up.
Today I saw at least three older fellas around town and felt like, “That’s what I want to be like when I grow up; slim, shorts and flip-flops, maybe a pony tail… like some kind of post-modern hippie surfer.” No idea why I want this, or if it will even prove more than a fleeting notion, but I’m thinking what got me here won’t get me there.
Or is this all, as Buddha explained, Dukkah–the fundamental unsatisfactoriness and painfulness of mundane life?